What did you do the day after the night we met?
Was I under you skin like blood under your veins?
Did I dart across your mind constantly?
Like the relentless way you moved across mine
I wonder....

What did you do the day after the night of our first kiss?
Did you listen to your favorite song, favorite CD, did you sing along?
Did you take a hot shower in an attempt to erase my scent off of your skin?
Only to realize that that traces of me are embedded within
Like you're embedded in me
I wonder...

What did you do the day after the night of our first fight?
Did you stand strong to your argument?
I'm sure you thought I was wrong and you were right
Did you shed a tear of frustration at my ignorance?
Did you realize your faults?
Did you try to call me to say that you're sorry only to find my number busy because I was calling you?
I wonder...

What do you do the day after the night we first made love?
Did you miss me in your bed?
Did you clutch your pillow tight?
Did you find sleep easily or did you reach for a soothing balm?
Did you anticipate our next encounter?
Because I did...
I wonder...

you disturb my peacefulness
touch me in my most private places
speak to me and i'm captivated
look at me and i'm enthralled
i melt into your embrace
i crumble when i look into your eyes
i find myself watching your lips
imagining myself sharing your breath
envision us entangled in lust
i must quiet my raging thoughts
before i am completely consumed
no use to no one, not even myself
you have this control over me

i am so desperate, so pathetic

i have no more walls, no more protection

so easily you’ve broken all of my defenses

and now I crave you

every part of me

i've always known
i could love enough
for both me and you
if i had to
but our love
spiritual
ignited divinely
so powerful
no need for words
flows fluidly between
i don't know when it happened
some day i came to realize
that i was loving you
generously
and your reciprocity
missing
and i cried to you
begged for you
and smugly you shrugged me
i had come to rely upon
the ego stroke
bedroom performances
but were increasingly drifting
i wanted you to
validate me
restore my status
i am the best piece
between your sheets
words i desired
never came
and our rift
became the biggest cavity
gaping hideously
my love unable to fill
my pride shattered
my heart punctured
my spirit torn
my mind twisted
you were out of my life
eyes blinded to the fact that
i was loving you
all along
more than i was loving me