Thursday, January 8, 2009

led me to safe relationships filled with more emotion that devotion
so i spent all of my time with my love, sat across from my love at dinners, at parties, at church
all the while pretending that my love was only my friend
that she and i were best girl friends

kept me from telling the truth to my loved ones
kept me from telling my truth to my friends
kept me from telling the truth to myself
that my safe relationship could never keep me happy

spawned lies and those lies took root and that root grew
first the lies were outside of the relationship
but lies like to travel and those lies worked themselves inside
soon we told lies to each other
just to keep from crying

kept us away from the outside
kept us in darkness
kept us lying and pretending until we no longer
recognized ourselves
until we no longer

Sunday, January 4, 2009

i wish you would
mr. stability
make your presence known in my life
have a vocabulary full of words
sans nigga
sans broke
sans can't
be all the way positive
i wish you would
mr. stability
show up with a j.o.b.
and children you are responsible for
and a family who loves you
they sing your praises
and your community knows you
by your first name
and your good deeds
i wish you would
mr. stability
show up with 2 sets of tools
and expertise on how to use both
so i won't have to resort to my own
laying pipes
in the bathroom
and the bedroom
i wish you would
mr. stability
have a heart of gold
more confidence
twice the courage
and three times the charisma
than the last man
ever had
restoring my faith
in men

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